Times have Changed!

Happy diwali to all! its year 2010 n m in to my mid twenties.. dont know y but i feel like grown up today.. i mean .. we have always heard oldies saying.."in our times, it was never the same.. u all have changed"... yes.. even m feeling it.. everything has changed..

in my childhood, me n my chuddy buddy sunny use to have a race to get up early morning on da first day of diwali.. get a ABHANG SNAN at our respective places, reach to the temple quickly, have prasadam n come back to play crackers.. dose old days r gone.. i have left playing crackers from my 7th standards as dey are hazardous for nature, n this yr even i got up at 11.30 on da first day.. wat will i race wid sunny? all preferences have changed..

i was always under the shadow of my grandfather.. never looked at him as a grandfather.. he was my frd, pathfinder.. savvier.. life without him was unimagined for me .. last month he passed away.. left me alone in dis world.. i have never felt so lonely in my own house for last 24 yrs.. trust me.. but cant help.. every one has to go one day.. finally god mercies him by giving him dat peaceful death.. dat to in front of his all loved ones.. ME, his frd, grandson, his life was der in front of him.. i cant forget dat traces of smile he gave jut before dieing.. he was looking ard for something.. n i entered his bedroom.. his eyes fixed on me.. a lil fulfilled smile on his face.. an unknowing shine on his face after 7-8 months.. and all ends.. i felt shattered.. thought i'll cry .. cry till da end.. didnt happen again.. dont know y... i was da most solid person on dat day.. was der wid my dad till da end.. but i know i was strong den.. deep in mind i have accepted his death.. it was expected..

his death also ringed sever responsibility.. dont know.. wat happened, suddenly felt to have some burden on my shoulder.. never felt it earlier.. his words enchanting in my ears.. "who will take care of our home, if its not u urself?", " if u r lost, follow the crowd.. but make sure that, some how make dem follow u rather dan u following dem.."

yes.. i have responsibility now..

responsibility to take care of me.. responsibility to achieve all my dreams.. as i have promised it to him..

just going through P.L Deshpande's Chitale master da other day.. he was so right in quoting.. "pursha, TiMEs Have ChnGEd."