Times have Changed!

Happy diwali to all! its year 2010 n m in to my mid twenties.. dont know y but i feel like grown up today.. i mean .. we have always heard oldies saying.."in our times, it was never the same.. u all have changed"... yes.. even m feeling it.. everything has changed..

in my childhood, me n my chuddy buddy sunny use to have a race to get up early morning on da first day of diwali.. get a ABHANG SNAN at our respective places, reach to the temple quickly, have prasadam n come back to play crackers.. dose old days r gone.. i have left playing crackers from my 7th standards as dey are hazardous for nature, n this yr even i got up at 11.30 on da first day.. wat will i race wid sunny? all preferences have changed..

i was always under the shadow of my grandfather.. never looked at him as a grandfather.. he was my frd, pathfinder.. savvier.. life without him was unimagined for me .. last month he passed away.. left me alone in dis world.. i have never felt so lonely in my own house for last 24 yrs.. trust me.. but cant help.. every one has to go one day.. finally god mercies him by giving him dat peaceful death.. dat to in front of his all loved ones.. ME, his frd, grandson, his life was der in front of him.. i cant forget dat traces of smile he gave jut before dieing.. he was looking ard for something.. n i entered his bedroom.. his eyes fixed on me.. a lil fulfilled smile on his face.. an unknowing shine on his face after 7-8 months.. and all ends.. i felt shattered.. thought i'll cry .. cry till da end.. didnt happen again.. dont know y... i was da most solid person on dat day.. was der wid my dad till da end.. but i know i was strong den.. deep in mind i have accepted his death.. it was expected..

his death also ringed sever responsibility.. dont know.. wat happened, suddenly felt to have some burden on my shoulder.. never felt it earlier.. his words enchanting in my ears.. "who will take care of our home, if its not u urself?", " if u r lost, follow the crowd.. but make sure that, some how make dem follow u rather dan u following dem.."

yes.. i have responsibility now..

responsibility to take care of me.. responsibility to achieve all my dreams.. as i have promised it to him..

just going through P.L Deshpande's Chitale master da other day.. he was so right in quoting.. "pursha, TiMEs Have ChnGEd."

khudaya tune kaise ye jahan sara bana dala?

its a high time in my life!!
last week my dad turned 50! mom turned 46! but .. its a long way up for me to go! m 24! still a student.. if our DTC can come up wid a new slot .. my slot will be named .."Zero income group"..pressures building on me.. nobody is putting it ..m the only one to drag it on me..
who is to blame..
its my innermost conscious!!
my mind!
he tells me.." dude!! its high time! high time to show ur skills.. to prove the world wrong... its high time to prove all ur dreams were not just a waste of time.. it was ur destiny... high time to teach a new lesson to all who thinks ..'ppl who speaks a lot cant do nething in dis world'.." i ask him "how? a small boy of 24 can challenge a huge world?" my mind asks me small question.. " who is da gr8 personality u want to be compared wid n why?" he asks me to use my brain.. but before dat.. i have a answer ready as usual! " gr8 personalities are gr8 only cause dey are incomparable.. i can not compare the lights of buffet's n tata's n gate's n all dose.. i just want my small name carved in dat list of incomparable personalities!" my mind seemed to be happy.. i thought so.. it could have been a usual sarcastic smile.. ppl throw at u wen u show bit of an attitude.. but who cares.. he asks me again.." u'll have to make it happen dude! but ders another question!! how will u make it happen?"
for the first time in my life m speechless.. i have no words to answer back! i my slef dont know the answer..
i dont want to copy wat i have heard from childhood!! Hard work, passion, commitment ! even deep in my heart i know the answer.. i dont want to say it dis time!! its time to make ur actions speak for u! i have the capability to achieve n den live my dream! i have dat talent .. attitude.. who else.. but i know it ..
just have to build a small structure of all my capability!!
i loose my control over my mind.. but again he reacts by pushing this Ghazal in der...

"main is duniya ko aksar dekh kar hairaan hota hun ...
na mujhse ban saka chhota saghar,din raat rota hun ...
khudaya tune kaise ye jahan sara bana dala ....

chamakte chand ko tuta hua tara bana dala
meri aawargi ne mujhko aawara bana dala"

internship!

phewwww.. finally happy days are about to play hide n seek at least for next 10- 11 months! just got over my MnM internship! was worth of an experience! on 3rd of may i joined this esteemed organization as a management trainee! u'll not believe, attention given n services provided were as good as an manager! within half an hour i was allotted an empty cubical, new pc, email id id card... eveything u c! n then within 2-3 days i started knowing every one by name!

i met few gr8 personalities der! Vinayak, most talented and most talked about personality amongst those all! this man taught me few simple rules of organization! never left me out from ne discussion as m just a trainee, tried to teach me plenty of concepts and always supported me n backed me! hats off man !
n den were few gd frds! ganesh, omkar, tushar, kishor, harshit, anujeet, parag,nitin,arpit... i mean they all are managers, officers but i had become one of them, not as a manager but one from the family! we gossiped at times, we laughed, chatted puleed each others legs, talked business, logic at times all fun..
i also played in internal mahindra cricket tournament and gave my best to bring the glory but i think that wasn't enough.. but that definitely made a special space for me in MnM gallery.
i'll never forget that gd atmosphere, freely blowing wind in campus, a/c's who made us remember the bluestar's add, that long walks to gate no 5 in the night to go home, daily traffic while going to office, lessons i learned, perfection i got, logic i derived, frds i made, mistakes i made..
i'll never forget that place which gave me a taste of an organization,
i think this is the phase of my maturation!

have to reach the horizon before my saturation,
working for mahindra was always an imagination!

lets meet up guys its time for celebration,
if i reach where i wanna reach its californication !!

A banned adv during IPL

the time goes by wen U grow up!

ahh!! writing after abt 6 months! n let me tel u, i hv completed my 1 st yr of MBA hopefully!! i mean if i pass all the subjects! let it be! studies apart now!
this semester i cldnt fool ppl ard n started being wat m truly is! n yeah i guess i was bit successful in winning some hearts in the college!
half the time u think if u'll show wat u really are, makes u weaker! i mean for an emotional fool like me this is true! u carry "i dont care" attitude on your face & den being emotional doesn't go dat well right??


haha!! let it be! things wont change on wat ppl think abt u ! wat matters is wat u really are deep down ur heart !
this sem i seriously realized dat my class mates are not grown up! dey are still in der nappies! creating a grp, doin time pass & most imp NOT LISTENING TO ANY ONE! der are few mature guys like anup lavkik nitesh etc. but dey were not guiding der frds to walk on a right path !
instead dey thought of encouraging ppl even if dey were wrong! i personally think anup n lavkik have the capacity to guide their respct grps in a right direction !
one of my frd akshay says, jinko life ain kuch karna nahi hai wo MBA karta hai! such an immature thought in 22 yr old guy! wat can u say? i think chota kotller is just investing his time for his time pass!
same is the case wid nitesh ! everybody can see wats going on kushal's life. but he cldnt tell him on his face dat boss, this is not a way ! ur train is again to be derailed soon or u'l derail dat guls train who is clearly seem to be involved !

so some times i try to tell this to this guys! wat can u do yaar ?? i dont want this guys to screw up der n der parents lyf!
jaane do !

ahh!! i think i m grown up a bit in this yr! lyf has started showing its color or m just coming out of my teenage ! wat ever it is !
every thing happens wid a reason!